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LonG tiMe nO bLoG...!

2006-10-22T07:54:00.000-07:00

hElLOz..tHinK it'S tImE I sHld sTarT bLogGiNg aGAin..I c sPiDerwEbs All arOund le..hMmm..my lIfe iS aLwAys sO plaiN n uNexCiTiNg..n...mY liFe is forEvA sOOoo bUsy de..nO cHoiCe lOh..bUt poLy eNdiNg soOn le..sTilL no PlaN boUt mY fuTUre..hAiz..oUr dInNEr n dANce liKe oSo no bOdy wAnNA gO de LoH..k lAh..fOR a sTArt, tAt's all..

~iN sChooL..~

2005-12-01T22:36:00.000-08:00

So lOng didn'T bLog lIaO..hAhA..mE jUz fIniSh my boRinG GeMS..haha..den NotHing better to do..so came to blog loH..heez..Sabrina has gone to Malaysia le ba..heez..got her msg last nite..heez..miss Pat, Tian n Sab lots lots lehz...now tat Pat has finish her exams, we can go out le ba..heez..these days, I've been very busy over so many school work..assignments, reports, tests.. haiz..getting so tired everyday..haiz.. stress.. I like always complain bout sch work de..haha..sick n tired..anyway, x'mas is coming..!!haha..a new yr is starting soon too le..another 2 yrs n I'll be joining the work force..no need to study anymore..yeah..haha..time to go..bye..

~eRm..bLoGgIng aGaIN..~

2005-10-20T09:16:00.000-07:00

hIhI..wA..tat time I blog sch juz reopen..now sch ends liao..n I even got my results..haha..this show how fast time past..haha..actually hor..juz now when I log into blogger, I actually forgot the user name n password lehz..(shh..dun let Sabrina know..or I'll get killed..)haha..but I still manage to log into blogger..so mean tat I didn't forget..!haha..life have been quite busy for me during this period..cuz 2nd yr in poly le..means more pressure, less time for myself le..but I still pass all my modules in the 1st sem n got 3.06 for GPA..maybe for those clever ones like Sok ling, this is not very good results..but I think I'm very happy with my results le..haha..muz know how to be contented den life wil be easier..but too easily contented will only end up with not so good results like me..haha..hmmm...lately, Davin n I r still happily together..onli had quite a big quarrel the other time when I decide to go to work on weekends..cuz normally weekends r the onli time we can go out ma..den he got very upset over me..almost broke up loh..wanted to give up the job liao..but the job didn't come easily..so I held on to it..heez..he finally decide to put his anger aside n settle things..so we r happily back together..heez..actually it's becuz we wanted to work together de..but since I got the chance to work 1st so I go work liao loh..m I being too selfish ar?haiz..normally everything I do I'll let him know 1st de loh..but becuz tat job I got it as soon as I finish my exams n he's still having exams so I didn't let him know until his exams r over n I've oredi accepted the job..haiz..but afterall, the issue is settled n we r happy once again..at least the weekdays I can take some time out to be with him..heez...n hor..last week I went for some culinary lesson by SP de lehz..den learnt how to make tempura, banana cake, peanut cookies n pineapple tarts..if anyone wanna try..can let me know..I'll try to make..but not nice dun blame me lehz...heez..n I need to get an oven 1st..my house de oven oredi rusty liao..haha..too long didn't use le lah..sianz..haiyo...anyway, sch starting again le lah..more n more sianz..I heard tat this coming sem will be a disaster loh...haiz..but still gotta face it de lah..heez..n hor..Sab, Tian n Pat..we very very super long didn't meet up le lehz...esp with Pat..almost forget how she look le lah..onli got those pics we took to remind me..we gotta meet up some day ok?k lah..today blog alot le lehz..heez..very long didn't blog tat's y muz crap a bit more loh..heez..

~1st dAy oF sCh...~

2005-05-30T15:58:00.000-07:00

yEaH!!!It's sch once again..n in this new yr I'm yr 2 le..heez..old bird of the sch oredi..heez...today saw many freshies..haha..reminds me of last yr sia..haha..time pass really very very fast..me n Davin together oso got around 1 yr oredi..haha...n...he juz came baq today!!!haha..but still didn't manage to c him..haha..cuz he juz came baq den went for lesson le lehz...so hardworking hor?hahaha...den his lesson ends at 5pm..hope it'll end earlier ba..haha..me now in sch library writing blog loh..heez...he went to Malaysia for around a week lidat lehz..haiz..miss him so much..it's like I feel kinda lost when he's not with me loh..haiz..sad sia..but I'm happy tat now he's baq again..but he's kinda sick lehz...sad..Malaysia not like Singapore ma..den he went there to camp oso de..not go there holiday de loh..haiz..but nvm..me will take good care of him de..he'll recover in no time..haha..ok..let's talk bout my 1st day of sch..haiz..this morning actually sch starts at 10am loh..but I printed the older version of timetable n came at 9am loh..so sad sia..blur like sotong..haiz..den hor, when using the com rite..the com give me lots of probs loh..haiz..wat a day to start with..but things resume as soon as I started lesson...I saw my frens..haha..this holiday is kinda too short for any big changes..haha..but everyone r still well..tat's good loh..heez..but today Kat's not around..according to Jia Li, she's in China..will come to sch onli on Thurs..so lucky loh..can go overseas now n then..heez...my grand dad is in hospital but will be discharged very soon..heez..den last fri- sunday me was working for Sab's dad..heez.. den Sat n Sun Wilfred,Sab's bf, worked with me..haha..we worked at creative warehouse sale there loh..haha..still ok lah..heez..this whole holiday a bit too short lehz..me still not enuff loh..den hor, this weekend I have a chalet..suppose to be a family chalet..but my grand dad can't go, so I suppose it'll be a frens' chalet ba..Ben will ask his frens to come loh..den c Davin recovered by den anot..den we can go n play loh..heez...kk..think I've nothing much to say le..heez..talk too much le...heez..signing off le..bye!

~mIsSiNg U~

2005-05-07T23:34:00.000-07:00

hEy...so long didn't blog le...1st time blogging at home aft so long..heez...time flies really fast...that time I was still having exams..now my exams results r out...it's better than the previous sem but it was nothing compared to Davin's result...dun understand how he did it..haiz...he got 3 distinctions loh...den 3 As...n for his Gems...he got a C...hahahaha...it wasn't easy lah..heez...me lehz...haiz...sad sia...I got 2 As onli...2 b+ n 1 B...1 C+ n 1C...can't rmb for wat subject I got wat result le...agar agar is lidat ba...heeheez...Davin is currently in Malaysia...he went there to work..heez...miss him like crazy...can't imagine how Kim Ying did it when City Hall gotta leave her to work overseas the other time...this 3 days 2 nites trip oredi driving me crazy...haha...den Davin is going there again for another 8 days soon aft he comes baq...haiz...very miss him wor...maybe this is the feeling of love ba...haiz...it's juz him all the time...haiz...think I stick too much to him le...that's y when he's not around..I was kinda lost..haha...nvm..he'll be baq tml le...hahaha...happy...=]...Thanks for accompanying me for today, Sab!...heez...

~ThAnkS SaBrInA!~

2005-04-10T22:35:00.000-07:00

HeY... I'm in sch now...wun blog much...cuz I gotta study for my exams later...heez...ok...1stly, I wanna thanks Sabrina for making my blogskin so beautiful...heez...ok...n...thanks for the watch that she bought for us..heez...ok...think I shall end here...wish me good luck for my MIP exams later...thanks...!

~ExAmS...~

2005-04-01T13:50:00.000-08:00

hEy...long long time didn't blog le...haiz...cuz nowadays really busy with exams...haiz...very sianz lehz...gotta study n study...StRESS!!!!!! hahaha...but nvm ba...heez...den today is April Fool Day!!!...hahaha...gotta go n fool my frens le...heez...den hor, I wanna congratulate ShI HuI...she got into the Heats of the Teenage Idol competition lehz...heez...Frens, pls support her...drink i sport drink n keep the bottle cap for voting for her on 24th April at Tampanies Mall...heez...Muz go n support her!...heez...n congrats to Sabrina too...she got the 3rd for the tiger balm competition...heez...haiz...all my frens have achievements...me?nothing lehz...haiz...buried under the pile of notes day n nite...Davin didn't pei me study oso...think I muz be a nuisance to him ba...that's y...haiz...quite saddening de lehz...miss him like hell...haiz...sick liao...having love sick... flu n stuff...haiz...hope exams will be over very soon...so I can c him again...heez... signing off...may not blog till exams r over...take care!...

~sO loNg dIdn'T bLog lE...~

2005-03-15T22:31:00.000-08:00

haha...like very very long ago den juz blog hor?hahaha...this week got lots of tests going on...den got presentation oso...that's y I've no time to blog...heez...Davin's birthday was a very interesting occasion...it went well...heez...n we r back together again...as loving as before...hmmm...maybe it shld be better den b4...hahaha...I'm quite sick these days..very stress...den got headache...haiz.. sianz...hope I'll be fine soon...heez...Sabrina have left for Hong Kong...heez..so good loh...can go overseas...sianz lehz...I still gotta study..but nvm...I'll be free after my exams...heez...k...nothing much to say le...bye...

~ExCitEd~

2005-03-04T12:33:00.000-08:00

hAhA...tml will be the day Davin n I reunion...after so many days of seperation...make me miss him like crazy le lah...heez...so ExCiTeD...hee...dEn I'm well prepared...when our with Shi Hui on Wed to buy clothes to wear tml...cost me $80 plus lehz...got some make up tips from her...cuz I dun make up de ma...heez...den I oso dyed my hair...but can't really c the different...cuz I colour dark brown...haiz...dun wanna let me parents scold ma...heez...den I bought a prezzie for him...walk n find till my legs almost break...it cost me $70 lehz... but worth it...heez...Davin was looking for it for a long long time le...heez...now...everything is ready...heez...I'm looking forward to my tomorrow!...hahahahaha.....wish me luck!...hahaha....signing off...

~rAinBow afTer thE rAin~

2005-03-02T12:14:00.000-08:00

hiz...it has been quite some time ever since I last blogged...heez...these weeks r rather slack...no tests...but got presentation loh...heez...n I've juz finish doing the slides...tml is the presentation...haiz...Davin n I r still under the seperation period...but this seperation is not going to be long...cuz this Sat is his birthday n we r going to celebrate it together...last Friday, we met each other at the mrt station...that was when we were on our way to sch...heez...he held me tightly in his arms and told me that we'll be together... it was because he has too many tests to handle these weeks that's y he wanted to seperate...as these days our relationship was turning a little sour...so he tot it's good to seperate for 2 weeks and let each other cool down...that was his intension...he didn't wan a break up...tat's wat he said...this week he has 4 tests altogether...so we will only meet on his birthday...heez... Last Thurs, I met up with Sab n Tian...heez...it had been a very long time since we 3 met...heez...for a moment, I tot that our frenship is over juz lidat...but no...we were back together...it's when Sab saw my blog n asked me out...still tot that Sab wun wan me as her best fren anymore...but really thank God... we r together again...it's always when I'm in trouble, den my angels will bring me throught the toughest tides...thanks Sabrina n Tian...heez... n today is Sab's dear, Wilfred's birthday.... wanna wish him a very happy birthday...n that both of them can be together forever...I wanna be Sab's bridemaid when u both married ok...heez...right now, I'm in sch's com lab...waiting for Shi Hui to come...she wanna ask bout some courses in SP that she is going to take...we r going to be school mates very soon...hahahaha... SP rulEz!!...hHAha...after that we r going to town...heez...go n shop for Davin's prezzie...still have no idea of wat to buy for him lehz...he dun like the idea of getting a wallet for his birthday...haiz... den all he needs now is actually the O2 XDA mini phone...but that is way too expensive...haiz...maybe I can find some surprises in town to get for him...heez...anyway, I miss Davin very much...it's like 5 days since I last met him...haiz... nvm...I muz look forward to this Sat...heez...=]

~SePeRaTiOn~

2005-02-23T12:49:00.000-08:00

hiHi...this weekend is a rather tiring and bad weekends...Sat I had a carnival in SP which is from 8am to 6pm...I didn't manage to meet Davin at all...On Sunday, I went to celebrate Jesaline's birthday with all my sec sch frens and only met Davin for less than 5mins at the mrt station where he's going home from AMK and I'm going home...Monday I was sick...very sick... den met Davin and go home after that...didn't spend much time with him...Tuesday I end sch later den him...he went jamming and we didn't meet...we seldom msg each other and he takes very long to reply me...haiz...he's busy these days with his things n I'm finding my own things to be busy with...we quarrelled on Sat that's y we wanted a seperation...is this the end? When is it the end? I dunno...but his birthday is round the corner n I dunno wat relationship are we then...is it still bgr or juz frenz...anyway, I'll live happily and get on with my life......signing off...

~jUz fInIsHeD tEsT...hee..~

2005-02-17T00:34:00.000-08:00

yeah!...finally finished all the tests this week le...phew...hahaha...next week no test but this Sat gotta do CIP in sch...it's a carnival...interested to come?heez...after blogging ytd, den I went to Sabrina's blog to take a look...I really dunno wat to say...I was wondering is our frenship so fragile?Is our friendship really over?sometimes, I'm like thinking y is it tat all my frens r against my lover?Is he so bad?No one actually understand how we both felt... it's like...well...he mayb unreasonable, controlling petty and stuff...but I think he's fine to me...it's all bout compromising in relationship...so y care who gives in more or who does not give in?u know, always when my frens disagrees with my relationship,I'll tell him...ever think of how he felt...once, he actually shouted at me and asked,"Y is it that all ur frens are against me? Am I that bad?Wat's wrong with me?"...Sabrina has a very good bf, I think she shld appreciate more and not bully him always...I dun think Davin is worse den him...love can't be compared...am I wrong?Is Davin so bad?I'm not those super pretty sort, so I dun think I'm much compettible to him...at the earlier stage of our relationship, there was a fren of his actually said that he has bad taste n all that...compared me to her ex...but...wat did he do?He stood up and told his frens, "it is not the outer beauty that attacts me, it's her inner beauty which made him fell in love with her. Pls do not insult my gf..."after that, he didn't talk to that guy anymore lehz...wah...so sentimental rite...I broke down in tears when I heard that... C...how much does he love me?How can I ever say he does not love me...Love me means muz give me freedom? In his dictionary of love, he wants his lover to be with him forever...he does not want to have another failed relationship... I may not share alot of him in my blog...and all that ppl c is his controlling...he controls me becuz he knows that I'm someone who can't control myself n will be tempted to play rather than studying...he wants to get distinctions in all his subject and expect me to do the same...like a dad, he will scold me when I starred blankly at him when I'm studying or fall aslp when reading an acticle...this is his way of love...however, there r time that we play, go shopping and complete of puzzle...the puzzle in his house is collecting dust as lazy me do not wanna spend time on it...haha...we normally will go arcade to play bomberman...haha...it's a very old game le...but I enjoyed playing...he do not like it, but becuz I wanna play, he pei me...Am I happier now? Yes and no...cuz my mood is completely dependant on him...if he's happy, I'll be happy.if he's sad, I'll be sad...so by all means, I'll try my very best to make him happy...I may look happier when I'm single...it's quite true...but after u r in a relationship, u will grow...learn to accept a person and love him for who he is...He does not like me to hang around with some of my frens, that is becuz I'm very easily influent...I'd listen to wat ppl says and have no mind of my own...he's afraid that my frens will say things bad bout him and make him lose me...many times he convinced himself and allows me to go out with whoever I wan,but in the end I would have to quarrel with him... cuz somehow I'm influenced by ppl's opinion... others may have bf who meet up with their gf once a week, some may not quarrel over some tiny matter, some may give lots of freedom...... my bf, he take our relationship seriously...he makes me his one n only wife-to-be...he want to spend all his time with me, wans me to understand how he feels and restrict me to some ppl as he wan me to be all his...all these are juz his way of showing his love and loving me...this is my 1st love...hopefully the last too...he will always plan for the future...once, we saw a pair of old couple...the lady was pushing the man in his wheelchair...he asked me...next time will I push him around if he is disabled...?I of cuz not those romantic type...I said...of cuz not lah...I'll be next to u pushing myself around also...he says, maybe it'll be him pushing me around...I too weak liao...this is his way of love...n I'm happy with who I am...I really hope all my frens will agree with my way of thinking and accept my relationship...friendship can be forever when understanding is in it...so pls understand that I can't change Davin n I wun wan him to change...I can't have the amt of freedom I used to have and wun be able to go everywhere I wan...so dun be disappointed...I wun be able to give up my frens for him n I wun give up him for frens too...so dun ask me to choose...I love all my frens...it's not impossible to ask me out...but only that I need the consent of my bf...I still c Sabrina as my best fren...or else that Sun I wun even lied n made Davin so fed up and got us almost broke off with each other...I'll try my very best whenever I can to make it possible to meet up...everytime I'll try...Sabrina, we r still best frens, rite?type too much le...signing off....

~eVeRydAy iS VaLenTiNe's DaY~

2005-02-16T17:22:00.000-08:00

HaHa...So LoNg eVEr sINcE I uPdAtEd...HeeZ....iT hAs bEeN gReAt tHeSe dAys... it'S ChinEsE New yeAR aNd V.dAy...HEeZ...CNY was a VEry buSy oNE...bUt oSo eNjoYabLe...hEeZ...thE sAd thINg iS tAt I cAn't c DavIN ovEr tHE feW dAys...hEeZ...miSs hIm loTs...HeeZ...wE dIdn'T rEalLY celEbrATe V dAy thIS yeAr...aS I hAve a tEsT On tueSdAy...dEn wE r sAvIng foR a O2 XDA mINi...I pRoMIsEd tO sPonSeR hIm PArT of It..sO we R bOTh sAviNg lIKe mAd NOw...hOpEfULly we"ll meEt thE tArgEt bY hIS biRtHDaY...hAhAhA...tHIs CNY diDn'T gO SabRinA'S hOuSe...HAiZ...dEn I thinK shE's sTill aNGry wiTH me fOR nOt pei-ing hEr tO orchArd lASt moNdaY...BUt I thinK hEr vEry vEry gOOd bf wIll pEi hEr dE bA...So SabRinA sHLdn't bE vEry aNGry bA...HEeZ...DaVin juZ bOughT a paIR oF OaklEy sPEcs lEhZ...iT's So eXpENSIVe lOh..bUT it'S tItAnIUM onE...sO wun RuSt...lIdaT hiS sKiN wUn be aFfEcTed...hEeZ...tML haVe a teSt...heEz...sTudy uNTil vEry tirEd le...bUt sTill wAitIng DaviN now lOh...HeeZ...kk... thaT's All...

~iT's fRenS oR rElatIonsHIp~

2005-02-04T12:02:00.000-08:00

LAsT SundAy, I wEnT ouT wITh ShI Hui...oN sAt, bEcUZ of wAnTinG tO Go oUt eArlieR wiTh SH, I tOok sOMe tImE ouT to dO my iRonIng oF cLoThEs... wAs sUppOSe to MeET DaVin dE... bUT iRon tiLL bOUT 3 plUS...I adMIt iT wAs mY mIstAKe...hAiZ...dEn I hAd a vEry tEnSe qUarReL wIth DaVin oN SuNdAy NitE...I wAntEd a brEAkup aT 1sT...n I'm Very suRe hE wAntEd it TOo...bUt it iS a rElaTioNsHIp wHIcH wE hAd mEntAin fOR 7 mThs...hOW wOUlD I lEt IT gO?hAiZ... dEn hE ASkEd Me iF I wAntEd IT...I sAid nO...sO hE cAmE ouT WiTh thIS agReeMenT tAt I cAN'T Go OuT wITh mY fReNs WhEn I cAN't fINisH mY hOuSewORk oN tIMe...anD mUz pUt eFfORt tO cOme oUt on tiME fOR dAtinG...n noT aLwAys lEt HIm wAIt...He hAd bEeN wAitiNG fOR mE liKE So LOng lE... hAIz...FeeL sO BaD...DeN i mONdAY tAT daY WeNt To ScH LaTe...Haiz...i CriEd TilL My Eyes wENt SwOllEN LeHz...HaIz...But AfteR TaT AGrEement, ShI hUi Is REaLLy AnGRy WItH me...Cuz sHe hAs a haiRdrEsSing apPOINtmEnt thIS SuNDay...bUT no onE Is pEi-iNg hEr...hAIZ...fORgEt iT...I gOTTa gO...hEeZ...

~wAitINg FaIThFulLY~

2005-01-27T16:22:00.000-08:00

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~iN sChoOL~

2005-01-24T09:35:00.000-08:00

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~A bIg mIsTaKe~

2005-01-20T16:40:00.000-08:00

wAhAhA...I jUz fiNisHeD mY MIP tEsT...wAlIAo...sTupID loH...I liKE mEnTaL bLoCk lOh...HaiZ...Den gOT A fEw qUeStiOn dIdn'T dO pRoPErLy dE...hAiZ...YtD wAs sO bAd lOh...hAiZ...I dIDn't HaVe sCh...sTaYed aT hoMe n sTuDy lOh...dEn davIN sUppOSe tO fINiSh sCh By 3Pm dE...dEn I eXpECt hIM tO mSg mE to c wHetHEr tO Go sTUdY togEther AnoT... bUt hE dIDn't...oK...So I tOT mAyBe hiS cLasS wAsn'T dISmiSs yeT... So I wAitEd...tIll 3.30 stILL no rEply...dEn I tOT wAt hApPEnEd...mSg hIm eNdlEsSly...tIll bOut 4pm...sTill No rEply...I pAniCkEd...I cAllEd 3 or 4 tImeS...nO aNsWeR...wA...dUNNo wAt hAppEnEd...sO I cHAngEd n rUsHEd oUt oF my HoUsE...hEadEd toWArdS the Sch...oN mY wAy...I cAll n mSg hIM umPteEn tImeS...sTiLL no rEplY aT aLL...HAiZ...I rEacHEd sCh...weNt tO loG intO tHE Sch acCounT anD chEcK for HiS tIMetAblE...tRyinG tO cHEcK iF hE hAvE Any tESt in thE afTerNOon...BUt I goT noThiNG...hAiZ...dEn fINally At roUnD 5.45pm, hE cAlLeD...we mEt At DoVer MRT sTAtIon...gUeSs Wat weRe hE doINg?hE wEnt oUT to plAy POoL wiTh hIS fReNS...hE uSed To lEt mE knOW dE loH...bUT thIs TimE hE diDN't lOH...hAIz...I wAs sSsSoooOO mAd At HIm lOh...I iGnoReD hIM All thE wAy...hAiz...I wASn't fEelinG wEll dE loh...goT dIarrhEa...dEn on thE trAIn I sTOmaCh AchE lOh..hAiZ...btw, oN My wAy tO sCh, I tRieD cAllING hiM...n thiNk hE kINdA PIckEd uP...buT no aNSweR...I heaRd SomE vEry fAinT lAUghTer oF sOMe gIrlS...I asKed hIm buT hE sAy He wAs plAyINg pOOl WiTh 2 gUYs...So mAybe iT's sOMe girlS beSidE hiS tAblE bA...hE sAys he pUt hiS phOnes iN hIS bAg so He dunno I cAllEd hiM...hAiZ...thInk I'm oSo toO gAn cHeoNg lE lAh...hAiz....aFter tAt dEn I reaLisE hoW sTUpiD I aM...haIZ...cAre foR him yEt hE wAS plAyINg alL alONg...HAiZ...thINK I sHOuLDn'T cArE bOuT hIM lE lAh..hAiZ...foRgEt iT...iT's mY miStAkE...

~sO loNg dIdn'T wrItE...tHiS wiLL bE a shOrt oNe...~

2005-01-17T17:28:00.000-08:00

hIz...sO lOng didN't wRiTe Le...hAhA...cUZ like vErY buSy wiTh life n Sch...hEeZ...hMmM... noThinG mUch lOh...hEeZ...oH yA...SunDay wAtcH soCcEr...n u S'PorE woN!!!hAhA... n The MVP iS LydIA's broTheR lEh...HAhAz...wA...sO li hAi...hAHhA...DavIN n I sTill aS lOveLy AS evEr loH...HEeZ...bUt sTill tHE saMe, alWaYs qUarrEl dE...hAHhA...bUt dUN wOrRy lAh...fu qi mei you ge ye chou...hAhA...so We a WhiLE lAtEr ok Le...hAhA...k...goTtA go FoR clASs lE...1st PeriOD is PraCtiCal lE...hAiZ...kiNda sIanz...hEez...byE..

~iT's a bRanD nEw yEAr!!!...~

2005-01-05T13:11:00.000-08:00

hEy...afTer a wEek n I'm hEre aGAin...hAhA...upDatIng my blOg cAn bE quItE tRouBLeSoME soMetImeS cuZ aT hoME cAN't uSe tHE cOm...oNli gOT tO uSe iT iN sCh...hEeZ...n I hEArd TaT my tAg boArD on my bLog iS mISsiNg...hMMm...thINk I goTtA sEeK hElP fRom SAbRinA....hAhA..I'm A cOMputEr iDiOt...hAiZ...PAt sTArteD hEr JC yr 2 lE bA...wA...So fAst hoR...iT's lIKe wOw!I'm a yR oLdeR aGAin...hAiZ...bUt...it'S ok lAh...now I'm sTill cOnSiDeR thE yoUNgESt iN POlY...hAhA...cUz I sTill Yr 1 mA...hEeZ...hAiZ...duNno y thESe dAys bEcOME so cRapPy...hEeZ...hMmm...vErY sTreSs...nEXt weEk gOt a tESt fOR mY AP chEm...sIaNz...sO fAsT lOh ...n I hAvEn fINish my tUtOriAls yEt...sIAnZ...nOw I'm wAitiNg foR my lAo goNg tO finISh hiS lAst 2 hr oF leSson of tHe dAy...hAhA.......k...tHiNk tAt'S aLL I wiLL sAy fOR toDAy...tAKe cARe!!

~sTuPid dUmb DumB mE~

2004-12-27T10:28:00.000-08:00

hAhA...I'm lAugHing oUt loUd at mYsElf...hAhAhAhA....sTuPid lIttLe mE...tOdAy iS a beAutIfUl MOndAy mORniNG...wHIch I WokE uP wiTh a TerrIble hEAdacHe...iT wAsn'T a GooD sTArt fOR mE oRedI...wHen I gOT tO sCh at 10am, I wEnT tO tHe ClasSrOom whIch I wAs suPpoSeD tO bE in...dEn I wAitEd fOr vEry lOng...iT wAs orEdi 10am, bUt nOne Of My cLAssMatE wAS hErE yEt...dEn I waIted ouTsIDe lOh...LaTEr, tHE teACheR cAMe...it wAsn't Mr Ting,tHE onE wHo is sUppOSe tO teAch mY mODulE,but iT wAs somE oTher leCtUrEr...duNno fRom wHErE...hE sAiD hELLo n AskEd me Y m I thE eARlieSt n WheRe WeRe mY fRens...fOR a moMenT I toT Mr TIng gOt MC sO tHiS tEAchEr is hEre to tAke oVer hIm...bUT wHEre weRe mY fREns?I wAs so sCared..dEn I chEcK the clAssRoom...bIngO...iT was tHis plAce...bUT y no onE is hEre...I wAs aFrAid N I mSgEd mY lAo Gong...n oSo Sok LIng...dEn Sok LinG toLD mE taT lEssOn stArts at 11am...dEn I reAlisE my stuPId mIStakE... hAiZ...nOw I'm iN the libRary sHAriNg my woRse exPerIEncE...dUN laUgh aT mE...haIz....iT'S sUPEr stUpid hOR...wAt a MOndAy mOrniNG...StUpiD lItTle mE...

~LaSt DaY oF tHe StUdy WeEk =]~

2004-12-16T17:09:00.000-08:00

YeAh! It'S FrIdAy...hAhAhA..I'm noW iN ScH's liBrArY cOMpUtEr lAb...heEz...tHIs wEek iS WeEk 1 oF sCh sO vEry VEry sLAcK....hAhA...hEeZ...nOw suPpoSe tO hAvE prAc dE...bUT deN dUN hAve lE...cUz toDay iS juZ a bRiefing...sO vEry fAst Over lE...I hAve aBout 3 hrs bEfORe mY neXt leSsOn sTaRTs...hAhA...duNno wAt To dO...quIte tiRed LeH...bTw, ytd I wEnt J8 gO sHOppIng...DavIn noT frEe tO pEi mE...hE gOTta gO oRChArD tO dO sOme sTUffS...dEn sO cOiNciDeNTaLly, I mEt Joyce n NIcOlE...hAhhA....dEn wE sTArted tAlkIng bOUt thoSe gOOd oLd dAyS oF Sec ScH....hHAhA...sUddEnly, I miSs WSS sOoOOoOO mUCh lEhZ...hAHhA... hMmM...iT sEeMS liKE iT wAs jUZ yTd TAt I gRadUaTEd fRm WSS loH...HEeZ...dEn weNt hOme aT boUt 9 plUs...hAhA...hEeZ...hOpe tHErE r mORe cHAncEs fOr uS tO mEeT aGAin...hEeZ...anYwAy...vEry tIRed...wANNa gO zZzZzZ lE...bYEz...hEeZ...

~bAq To ScHoOl...=]..~

2004-12-13T20:16:00.000-08:00

hEy...lOng tiMe diDn"T bLog...foR A mOmENT juZ noW I wAs sTill thInkiNG wAt wAs thE uSeR nAmE fOR tHIS bLoG...hAhA...aFtEr So mAny dAyS...ThinGs R bAcK tO wAt iT uSeD tO be...hEez...My ExAms rESuLts R sTill As lOuSy As eVEr...n hArDwOrkING ppL liKe my lAo goNg geT hIs eFfORt pAiD oFf...hEEz...hE gOt 1 dIst n tHe rEst A...eXcEpT FoR SoMe IN CoUrSE AsSiGNmENTs WhiCh gOt C...hAiZ...So MuCh bEtTer dEn mE le lOh...I goT no DiSt oR As...oNly B+ n Cs...hAiZ....vEry Very vEry sAd...=( hAiZ...bUt nVm...tHis sEmeStEr I'll 'ShIT N Rub iT oN tHE wAlL'(pLS TrAnSlAtE iT to cHineSe...)hahA......HolIdAyS r oVer n I thINk thiS holiDay iS sUPer shOrt lOh...didN't give mE enUff TimE tO Slp...hAhA....sOme moRe oncE I fINiSh My eXamS I WenT to GaIn CiTy To wOrk wIth mY lAo GonG...hAhA...gOt BAo FanG n hEr fRenS oso...hEeZ...dEn dUrIng The HolIdAy, I mEt up WiTh Jin Xiu, YIng Jia,FelIciA...dEn oSo gOt JAsMiNE, PiKA, PhEy Wen, JoyCe, JeSelyn, EllIce n AmElia...Tat dAy wEnt oUt to ceLeBrAte AmElia biRtHDAy...hEEZ...DeN sPenT moSt oF tHE oThEr tIMe wITh my laO goNg...hAhA...sOmetHIng wHicH I'm vEry hAppY aBoUT iS tAt SaBrInA iS nO loNgEr aNgrY wITh mE...n I bElIEvE We r frEns agAin...bTw, shE goT a bf fOR heRselF...hEez...bUt shE rEfUsE tO brIng hiM ouT to lEt us tAke a lOok...haHa...but nvm,I wUn fORcE hEr...hEehEez... aNyWay I thinK I'm ConTEnted wITh wAt I hAvE...hAha....ThiS hoLiDay I wORk fOR 10 dayS n sPenT alMoSt aLL of wAt I've eArn oReDi...So...I'm sOrrY...tHInk thIs yEAr wIll nOt haVe eNuff fUnds fOr X'mAs gifts...hAHa...bUt I thinK it sHLd bE ok bA...hEEz...hErEby,wIShinG aLL my fReNS oUt thEre A vEry vEry mErRy X'mAs...Ho HO Ho...!hEeZ...bYeZ...

~iN sChOOl...~

2004-10-20T23:33:00.000-07:00

HeY...TodAy cAme To sCh EaRlY in tHe moRning fOr aN eXcEl TeSt...HAiZ....sO sTrEsSed Up...ThEsE dAYs I'm So sIck...HAiZ...sTrEsS n SiCk...HAiZ...hAvIN fLu...hEEz...eXamS r NEaR...cUrRenTly wAItINg fOR DavIN loh...hE wEnT tO fINd tEaChEr aND eNqUiRe On sOMeThinG...hEeZ... dUnNO wHetHer iS SaBrInA sIck AnOt...hEr MSN nICk sAys TAt sHe'S sIck LEhz...hAiZ....sAme...boTh sICk...hAiZ...DuNNo lEhZ...tHeSe dAYs bEcOmE liKE veRy sIck...mAyb iS bEcUz oF sTreSs bA...toDay a fReN in mY cLAss kAnA cAuGht in The aCt wIth a guY iN my cLAss by SoME of mY cLasSmatEs...heEz...sHe WAs sO eMbaRrAsseD...hAhA...thINkinG bAq, DaViN n I haD sUrvIvEd tHru moRe thAn 3 mthS lE...hAhA...hOpE wE cAn lAsT fOReVer n eVeR...hEeZ...

~...eXaMs dRaWiNg nEaR...~

2004-10-17T20:32:00.000-07:00

hEy...lOng TiMe dIdn'T bLog le...hAiZ...aFtEr All tHoSe pRojEcTs aNd sTuFfs, I'm nOw fReE fRom alL oF tAT...bUt I'm sTill vErY sTreSs...CuZ oF mY ExAmS...tHeY aRe cOmIng SooN le...hAiZ...dUNnO hOw'S SaBrINa dOiNg theSe dAyS...rEalLy mIsS hEr lOtS...bUt dUnnO wHeThEr sHe'LL fOrgIVe mE aNOt...hAiZ...bUt tHEsE dAys vEry bUSy...dEn dIdN't hAve tImE to cATch uP wIth hEr Loh...n TiAn n Pat Oso...HAiZ...wAs LoOKinG tHrU mY nEoPrIntS tHE oThEr dAy...HaIZ...dUnNO y, I fEeL KinDa sAd...sOmeThiNG liKe...tHinGs WeRe nEvEr bE thE sAmE agAin...hAiZ...r tHoSe hAPpY tIMes oVer?hAiZ...I hOPe noT...hAiZ...NoW I Oso DuNnO hoW tO fAcE SAbrIna...thiNk taT juZ a aPoLogY wUn WorK...HAiz...wAt cAn I do? do I rEaLLy hAve tO cHooSe? CaN'T I maIntaIn bOth fRiEndShIp aNd rElaTioNshiP?hAiZ...thInk I mUz tAkE sOMe tiMe to sOrT thIngs ouT...haiZ...mAybE aFteR eXamS bA... DaVin pRomIsed To gIve mE 2 wEEkS tO mysElf... aNd anOTher 2 WeeKs tO hIM...ThinK tAt sHlD bE eNuFf bA...HAiz...sIaNz...exAms ArE hErE, n I rEaLly wISh tHAt it'll be oVEr Soon...hEez...tAkE cARe!! ByEz!

PrOjEcTs ProJeCtS aNd mOre ProJeCTS....

2004-10-08T01:03:00.000-07:00

hEyZ...sO lONg diDn'T upDatE bLoGgEr lEz... haIz...toDaY iS AnOThEr BuSy DAy...In fAct, evErYdAY is bUsY lOH...nO time tO rESt At All dE lOH...hAiZ...nExT WeEk gOtTa Do 3 pReSenTaTion, GoT 2 tEsTs tO sTuDy fOR And oNE rePOrT tO BE hANdED iN...SiAnZ loh...dEn eXaMS r roUnd The CoRnEr...hAiZ...thInk I'm oN tHe vErgE Of DePrESsIon lE lOh...HAiZ...VErY sAd lEhz...LikE sO loNg diDn't hAvE a dAy oF goOd SlP lE...gOiNg To bEcoMe A ZOoMbIE sOon...I WiLL nOt Be AbLe tO hAVE iT dOne aLL By mySElf...tHankS tO mY lAo GonG...eNcOuRAge mE anD sUppOrt ME tO cArRY on...HAiZ...bUt I soMehOw fEeL bAd loh...lIkE goT tOO muCh ThinGs TO coMplEtE anD nEglEctEd hIm... mY pOor lAo GonG...hAiZ... AlWaYS oSo lIke iT's My fAulT dEn We quarRel dE...I gOt tOo mAnY thINgs TO Do n No tiMe At aLL tO peI hIm... No wOnDeR He'lL gEt aNgRy lOh...cUz I toLd HIm SAt gotta dO pRoJecT dEn hE's anGry...hAiZ...dEn tOdAy Got timE buT goTtA Go n Pei Shi Hui...haIZ... sOmE tiME I thiNk I'm NoT goOD eNuFf FoR DavIn...hAiZ...buT I stIll loVe hIm loTs... TiAn finIsh hEr eXaMS lIAo...hAIZ....mIne Still HavE a lOnG wAy To Go...SiANz...kk...gTg lE...hEeZ... MiSs Z4 lotS...bUt DunNO wHEtHEr SaBriNA sTill anGrY wiTH mE aNoT...hAiZ...kk...tHAt's alL ...TaKE cAre...

~...It'S mY fAuLT, SoRrY...~

2004-09-27T20:24:00.000-07:00

hIz...1St oF aLL...I wOulD lIke To ApOLogIsE tO mY sWeEteSt, cuTeSt, lOveLieSt lEs PaRtNEr, SaBRiNA YeO JiA HuI...I'm soRRy FoR nOt aBlE to gO tO uR hOuSe oN SuNDay aS pRomIsEd...dUnnO iF u wIlL bE rEAdIng ThiS aNOt...bUt I jUz wAnNA aPologIsE lOh...I knOw SAbRinA Is sUpEr diSAppOinTeD WiTh mY dOinG...bUt aLL I cAn sAy iS SorRy...it'S ALL mY oWn faUlt...SaTuRdAys r dAys wHicH DaVin aNd I gO oUTiNG...bUT lAsT SaT DaVin pEi mE gO sCh aS I'm hAvINg a mAthcAd tEsT oN MOnDay n I wAnnA rEvISe It In sCh...n dEn ThuRs I gOT anOThEr teSt oN CPPB...I cAmE tO sCh n SiT in frONt oF tHE comPutEr...tHe oNlinE gAmE tEmpTeD mE...hAiZ...So I pLAyEd thE gAmEs...The AcCEss tiMe iS OnlI aN hoUr...so I toT I wIll hAvE tImE tO reVise...bUt I plaY till tHe time is Up...bTw, DavIN wAs nOt sItTinG bEsiDe mE aS wE wEre At dIfFErenT comPuTEr tErminAl...He aCtuAllY wAnTEd To PriNT sOMe thiNG fRom oUr sCh wEb dE...bUt I cauSe hIM unAbLE to pRinT...hAiZ...dEn DavIn wAns mE tO pRomIse hIm tAt I wUn bE goIng ouT oN sUNdAy as liDat dEn I cAn uSe THe tiME to stUdy...wAt cAN I dO oTher deN pRomiSing hIM tat?hAiZ...dEn whEn SabrIna callEd, hE suGgEst tAt I lIe tO SaB tAt mY PaRenTs wAn mE tO sTAy aT hoMe n sTudy..bUT SaB is My bESt fRen, thEre iS nO rEasOn foR lyIng tO mY beSt fRen so I toLD hEr thE tRuTh...shE's coMplEtLy mAd At Me...thiNk She's oSo VEry diSaPPointeD iN mE...hAiZ...I diDn't wAnT taT tO hAppEn...hAiz...dUnNO iZziT I'm fAllIng dEepEr n dEepEr iN lOvE WiTh dAviN lE...hAiZ...mY pAReNtS aCtuAlly thINk tat Davin iS a niCe guy AnD aSkEd ME tO leArN mORe fRoM hIm...hAIz...aM I tAt loUsy?hAIz...okok...tHInk it's tImE I mUZ sAy bYe le...bYe...tAke care...hOpE SaBrINa wilL undErsTaND mY dIffIcuLties...

~rAiNy dAyS...~

2004-09-21T02:19:00.000-07:00

hEyz..iT's rAiNIng catS n dOgS rIte nOw...hEeZ...I'm sItTinG iN tHiS cOlD cOmpUtEr LaB of MinE bLoGgINg...hEeZ...jUz fIniSheD mY RWP tESt...NoT vEry coNfiDEnt BouT iT...hEez...vEry sCarE... dUnnO wIll FAil aNOt...hAiZ...I thiNK I reaLly aM a sTuPid perSon...haIz...tHiS cOmiNG THurS hAVe aNoThEr tESt...vEry stReSs LEhz.... Iochem test.. It'd bE a vERy dIfFiCult tESt tO hAvE leHz...hAiZ...VeRy woRrIEd...diDn'T rEaLLy reViSe Yet...HAiz...sIAnZ...ThiNk I rEaLly mUz jIA yoU le...hAIZ...MIsS mY SaBrINa So mUCh...dUnnO wHen dEn Can mEeT Z4 aGAin...kINdA miSs ThEm All...HaHa...okok...thInk I gtg le...mUZ do SomE fEeDbAck fOrm thIngY...hAIz...bYe...tAkE Care pEePs...heeZ...

~hAiZ...Am I rEaLly sO sTuPiD???~

2004-09-14T23:13:00.000-07:00

hAiZ...toDay we goT bAq oUr BiO pApEr wHiCh wE haD on MonDaY...hAiZ...So sAd...I fAiLeD lEhZ...haiZ...reAllY disaPpoIntEd wItH mYsElF...y dId thiS hAPpEn?I'm reALly sO sTupId lOh...PpL nV sTudY bUt Can gEt bETTer rEsUlts dEn mE...aT lEAsT cAn pASs...I dUn dARe tO sAy I sTuDy vEry HaRd laH..bUt I dID PuT iN eFfORt tO sTudY lOh...vEry sAd lehZ...faIl lOH...haiZ...gOT onLi 15.5/35 lOh...so PoOR...hAiZ...nOw LoW mOod lE LoH...hAIZ...lAteR sTiLl gOt a TaLk tO aTtEnD...hAiZ...sIaNz...DunNo whEn dEn I'll bE smARter...hAiz...vEry scAre laTer I hAvE to rEpEAt mY moDuLe agAin...hAiZ..soMehoW I thINk I had choSe tHE wRoNg cOUrSe tO sTUdy...haIZ...bTw, SabRinA wIlL be GoiNG to EuROpe tODay...BoN vOyAgE...!!!hEeZ...ThINK I muZ cHEer uP le...oR elSe todAy wilL be In tHIs louSy mOoD loH...cAnNoT lIDaT lOH...hAiZ...ok..SiGniNg oFF...tHInk I'vE kIllEd maNy anGels bY siGhIng sO mUcH...heEz...bYe!

...In LibRaRy nOw...aLoNe...sOb~

2004-09-13T19:31:00.000-07:00

yOz...iT's mE aGain...I'm aLoNe iN lIbRaRy nOw...pEi DaVin cOMe To sCh eArLy iN tHe mOrnIng...hEeZ...aCtuAllY I sTArt sCh aT 12pm dE lOh...hEeZ...lIkE mORe thEn a WeeK diDn't uPdAte bLog le...cUz lAst wEeK iS mY tErM bReAk lOh...hEeZ...tHe wHoLE wEeK wAs sPeNt wItH DaViN lOh...mIss my hOlIdAyS sO muCh...haha...hEArD tAt nOw iS tHe bReAkIng sEasOn lOh...hEeZ...mAnY ppl brOke oFf lE lOh...sO mAny aRouNd mE bRokE off lE leHZ...hAIz...I tOlD DaVin bOut iT...dEn hE sAys hE sTilL lOveS mE lOtS...sO sWeEt hOR?hEeZ...LaSt SuNdAy, I wEnT tO CelEbRaTe ShI hUi bIrThdAy At SweNsEn...heE...mEt ALl my sEc sCh fRenS...heeZ...vEry hAppY...bUt didN't mAnAge to cHaT mUCh cuZ mOndAy goT tEsT sO muSt sTuDy...ok...taT's ALl...bTw...I hAvE a quEstIon...wAt wiLl u dO iF uR bOyfreN or giRlfrEn teLl u taT he/she hAs a CrUsH oN sOmeoNe elSE?heeZ...sEe yA...

...A NoRmAl dAy...

2004-09-01T22:46:00.000-07:00

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hAiZ...y mUz tHiNgS tUrN oUt tO bE tHiS WaY???

2004-08-29T21:08:00.000-07:00

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20th Aug...tHeSe dAyS vErY sIcK...hAiZ...

2004-08-19T19:10:00.000-07:00

YoZ...lOng tIme No bLoG...hAiZ...lIfE hAs NoT bEeN vEry gOoD fOr mE...eVeR sInCe lASt SunDAy, I'm sIcK...TuEsDay DiDn'T eVEn go sCh...DaViN n I ArE hAvInG thIs sEpErAtiOn peRiod FoR A WeEk...hAiZ...sInCe Mon tIlL SAt...hAiZ...We r NoT hAPPy...sOMehoW, I'm gUiLTy..cUz I'm aLwAYS thE onE cAuSinG hiM to bE unHapPy...hAiZ...thEsE nItes I havEn bEeN sLeEpIng wEll...tHinKiNG thRu mAnY dIfFIcULt quEsTioN iN mY miNd...bTw, tHIs WeEk iS nOt A boRinG oNE at All...I wEnT tO thE EvOnNE's cOncErT iN SP oN mOnDay n wAtCheD ThE NotEbOok oN WeD wiTh WeITing...oSo wEnT oUT wiTh SabRina on THurS.... bUt dAyS wiThoUT DaViN r sTilL lAckINg of sOMethINg...JuZ dUNnO wAt...hAiZ...mAybE likE wAt SaBrINa saYS...I'm tOo dEpEndEnT on HIm le lAh...hAiZ...yTd...I mAde DaVin reALLy dISaPpoIntEd wItH mE...I wAs rEaLly ReAlly vEry verY guiLty...I diDn't mEAn wAt I sAid At aLl...cUz I knoW I'LL sTill lOvE him no mAtTer Wat...I'm jUz cRaZy oVeR hIM....hAiZ... duNno If hE hAS the sAme thiNkiNG As mE aNot...hAIz...I jUZ dun wANnA eNd it tHIs wAy... hAiZ...I toT our lOve iS sTroNG...I toT we'll lASt foReVA...M I iN mY drEAm...?cOme tO thInK oF iT, I mIte hAVe juZ wAKeN uP fRom a nIghTmARe...n foUnd mYselF loSt iN tHis rELAtiOnship...I cAN't tuRn bAcK le...dUNnO y...sOmehoW I'm pOisoNed bY DaVin....... DaVin...PLs cOMe bAck tO mE...I sTilL loVe u a lOT...rEaLly....................I nEeD u muCh........... hAiZ...Vex!.........k le...dUn tYpE lE...I dUN wAnnA cRy in LibRarY......bYe...!

11tH AuG 2004...iN sCh lAb oNcE aGaIn...wAiTinG fOr mY cCa tO sTaRt...

2004-08-11T00:10:00.000-07:00

hEyz...nOw I'm aLoNe iN tHe lIbraRy'S cOmPuTeR lAb...tRyInG tO uPdAtE mY bLog...n CleAr my mAilBoX...hAiZ...tElL u sOmEtHIng...I gOt 30/50 fOr mY IOCHEM tEsT lEhz!!!...hAiZ... dIDn't eXpeCt iT tO bE sO loW lOh...hAiZ...teAcHEr sAyS I gOT loTsA cAReleSs mIStAKeS...hAiz..bTw...I wEnT oUt WiTH Tan JiAn Yu yTd...hAhA...hE pAssEd mE thE bLuE JaCkEt WhiCh BaO fAnG n hIm bUy fOr mE De...LolZ....hAhA...We hAd dInNeR dEn wEnT tO bUy pReZzIe fOr JoAnnA...a bIt lAtE...bUt iT's tHe thoUghtS tAt cOuNt mA...lOlz...hAiz... DaR wAs quIte jEaLouS loh...hAHA..buT hE's fIne noW...heEz...wAnnA TyPE loTs dE...BuT dUnNO wAt To SaY lE...hEeZ...eArLy tHis mOrnIng Sab cAlls mE...Dar sAw n he was kinDa anGry...hAIz...hE's gEttIng vErY eAsIly aNgRy thEsE dAys...lOlz...bUt onlI foR tHe mOmEnt onLi...dEn aFt hE gOt To knOw wAt wE wErE tokIng bOut, hE's fiNe agAin...haha...kK...tHInk I gotTa eNd hErE lE...ByE...!

10th AugusT 2004...In ScH cOm lAb...

2004-08-09T18:14:00.000-07:00

yoZ...sIaNz...So lOng DiDn'T pOSt blOg lE...haHa...tODay I cAmE tO sCh sUpEr eArlY lOh...maiN mOtiVe iS tO pEi mY lAo GonG tO sCh loh...aNywAy I hAvE tO sTuDy FoR tHe tEsT lATEr oSo...LoLz...hAhA...lAsT nItE We quArrElleD bEcUz oF SabRinA aGaIn...SomehoW thEy 2 JuZ cAn't bE fReNs Loh...wIll coMfIrM beCuZ oF thEm Den I'Ll bE sTuCk In bEtwEeN dE...sIaN...lAsT nitE dIdn'T sLp wEll...eArLy in tHe mORnIng WokE up my muM...hAiZ... sO sleEpy nOw...dUnNo iF I cAn Do wEll iN mY teSt lAtEr oR nOt...hAiZ...tHink tAt's aLl is bA...uPdAte nExt TIme le...tAKe cAre...

2004-08-08T21:01:00.000-07:00

tHe nEos wE tOoK~

3rD AugUSt...tHe rElEAsE oF JaY cHou'S 5tH aLbUm...

2004-08-02T23:16:00.000-07:00

hAiZ...iT hAd bEeN qUitE sOmE tImE eVeR SinCe I loGgEd iN...hEeZ...hAd BeEn sTreSseD oUt iN sTuDieS...tOdAy iS TuESdAy...thErEfoRe I'm FrEe tO cOmE onLinE tO bLog...hAhA....thEsE dAyS wErE nOt mY dAys...sOmeHoW I tHInk tAT thIngS r nOt gOinG The wAy I wAnt iT tO bE...hAiZ...I'vE gAvE mY eVeryThiNg tO tRy oN gEttIng mY liFe bAq tO wHeRe iT hAs sTArteD...iT mAy bE tHe sTreSs oF hW n stUfFs...mY bEsT fREn diSagreEd wItH mE... I ShOulDn'T sAy We quArrELeD...bUt iT sHoUlD bE a MisUndErsTanDinG...SabRiNa...nO mAttEr HoW mUcH I eXplAin...I knOW tAt u wUn liStEn tO mE...jUz wAnnA tEll u TaT I'm sOrrY...fOR wAt I'vE doNe tAt mAdE u fEeL unhAppY...sOmE tiMEs, I'Ll aSk mYsElf...iS thIs liFe thE onE I wAnnA lEd...iS He a sUitAblE onE fOr mE?dO I kNoW mySeLf wEll EnuFF??? hAiZ...sO maNy quEsTiOn mArkS...wHo To aSk fOr anSweR???!!My PaReNtS n DaVin diSaPrOve my beLieF...mY bRo lOok dOwN oN me...mY fReN mISundErsTooD me...wAt sHld I dO??hAiZ...tHaNks SaB FoR cReatiNg tHiS bLoG For mE to tEll mY fEeliNGs n ThoughTs...onCe agaIn...I'm SoRrY SaB...foR wAteVa I'vE dOnE tAt mAde u uNhAppY........ tAt'S alL le bA...comE onLine nExt tImE...siGniNG oFf...

2004-08-01T06:34:00.000-07:00

tHe nEopRiNtS tHaT sAbRiNa aNd i tOoK!

28tH JuLy 2004...ArGh...HP no BatT..hAiZ...

2004-07-27T23:11:00.000-07:00

hAiZ...I'm iN tHe cOmpuTer lAb oNcE aGaIn...hAiZ...mY hP nO baTt lE...cAn'T oN aT aLl...hAvE loSt cOntAct wItH thE wOrlD...hAiZ...sO sAd lOh...hEeZ...tOdAy cAmE tO sCh ToO eArLy le...tAt's Y wIlL hAvE nO timE to chArGe mY pHonE...cAmE to Sch to hAvE bReAkfAst wiTh Dar n JeffrEy...hEeZ...vErY fUnNY lOh...dEn eAt tIll dAr lAtE foR clASs...hAHA...sIaNz...nOw wAitIng fOr LenNoN tO finIsh cLAss sO I cAn mEeT hIm...kIndA sCarE lEhz...cUz dUnnO wAt wiLl hE sAy bout mY n DaViN loH...dEn nOw tAt mY phOne nO bAtT...iT's SupEr difFicUlt tO coNtact hiM loH...hAiz...kZ...tODay nOt Too bAd lAh...gOTta dO projeCt onlI lOh...oN ouR CP4007 PrAc...sIAnZ...kk...thiNk tAt's aLl I GotTa sAy noW...iF I can...I'll blOg aGaIn tOniTe...taTA...

27th JulY 2004...oNcE aGAin iN SP liBraRy...HEeZ...

2004-07-26T23:34:00.000-07:00

hEy...hAhA...now oSo nO lEsSon...bUt thiS tiMe oNli gOT 1/2 an HouR...mUz jIa yoU...FasTeR wRItE...hAhA....thEsE dAys HavE bEeN quItE stReSsfUl...haIz...NoT onLi bEcUz oF sTuDieS... BuT oSo bEcUZ oF reLAtionShiP n FriEndShIp...DaR wAnTeD Me tO giVe uP GOD foR hIm.... bUt sOmeHow, I thInk it'S nOT vEry Gd...n I thiNk I've ReAlLy hUrT DaWn tOo mUch...Aft reAdiNg thE tAg tAt sHe wROtE oN my bLog, it rEaLly kIndA wAke mE Up...HAiz...WhEn tO sAbrINa'S hOUSe On SunDay...To PLay...acTuAllY nOt ReAllY plAy Lah...bUT tO sEeK hElp fRom hEr...tHInk iT's reAlly gOOd tO hAvE Sab...hAhA...Den Dar wAns mE tO asSuRE hIm tAt I wUn lEAvE hIM...I'm nOt cOnfIdeNt...cUz I'm vErY fIcKle mIndEd dE lOh...haIZ...I'vE to mAkE a cHoicE...tO bE beSt oF bOtH wORLd...I lOve God...I reAlly dO...bUT I loVe DAr tOo...As wAt SabrinA sAId...I cAn hAvE bOth...AS lOng aS I handlE iT wELl...heEz...tHink tAt'S aLl I cAn sAY nOw..DawN...I'm REallY soRry...tHInk I'vE rEAllY lEt u DoWn...SabRinA...thAnks once aGaIn...fOr mOdifYinG mY bLog For mE...thAnkS...siGnING ofF...tAke cAre!!!

I'm nOw iN sChoOl...hAhA...21sT JulY 2004...

2004-07-20T23:05:00.000-07:00

hAhA...nOw I'm iN tHe SP librAry...gUeSs wAt aM I doIng...hAhA...I'm SlAcKinG nOw...hAiZ... tOdAy stUdY fRoM 8aM-1Pm lEhz....wItH a 1 1/4 hr BrEaK aFteR PrActIcAl...(aCtUAlLy iS bEcUZ oUr gRp fIniSh tHe pRAc eArLy tAt'S y...hAhA...vErY tIrEd tHouGhoUT thE dAy... DaR acTuAlLy cAmE tO sChoOl wiTh Me WhEn hiS leSsOn oNlY stArts aT 8.30Am...hAhA...hE's alwAys thE oNe gIvIng uP hIs tiMe foR mE...SAbrInA iS sOmeHow aNgRy wiTh hIs afTeR thE oUtiNg aT thE bEAch...hAiz....bUt I thInk it Shld bE ok bY noW le bA...heE...yTd vEry hOrRibLe lEhz...I acTuAlly aCcIDentlY spIlleD tHe BenZoiC cryStALs tAt wE r doIng eXperimEnt on...hAiz...sO cAreLess oF mE...cAuSe RoBin, mY pRac partnEr, To havE hiS mArkS dEdUctEd WiTh Me...hAiZ...SomETimE I rEalLy tHinK tAt I'm a AcCiDeNT pRo...dId I mEntIoN tAt I fEll DoWn oN SunDAy wHeN We WeRE cYcLiNg...hAIz...sAD lEhz... SaBrInA n DaR sWeAreD tat tHey wIlL NEVER bRinG mE tO cYcLe aNyMorE...*soB sOb* hAiZ...aCtuAlly toDay I thInk I'm wRitiNG A lot...Cuz noW rEAllY vEry sIAn...dEn tHE IDEA RoOm IS pacKEd wITh pPL...so sAd...cAn't gO theRe N sLAcK...hAIz...tAt PaT iS fReE tHiS WEeKeNd...kInDa mIrAcLe Loh...sHe's lIkE nV fReE dE...Den SaB wAnNA gO n wAtCH MeAn GiRls...hAIz...TiAn oReDi WaTcheD So sHe wuN bE jOinIng uS...heEZ...mIsS TiAn lOtS...hEeZ...ThiNk nOWadAys wE aLL r gEttING moRe n mORe bUsY wiTh liFe...bUT I hAVe fAith tAt Z4 fRiEndsHiP nV dIE...heEz...aiYo...ThINk I'm tOo tiReD lE...tAt's y beCum A bIt eMoTionAl...hAhA...thiNK I'lL stOp hErE lE...hOpE Z3 wIll All bE WeLL N hAppY...hEE...SAyO nARa...

19th July 2004...busy...tired......YaWn

2004-07-19T06:08:00.000-07:00

hey...today is Monday...blues lehz...haiz...ytd went to the beach with Z2 n my dar...haiz...Pat is busy with singing in her church...haiz...I fell down n injured my elbow...very pain lehz...haiz...den today gotta go school...so tiring loh...haiz... didn't have enuff slp...heez...dunno when den can go out with Z3 again...think I gtg for the moment...my dumb brother is beside me...nagging at me...wanting to us the com...think tat's all I have to say today...signing off...byez...

17tH JuLy 04...tIrEd...SicK...aH cHOo eXcUSe me...

2004-07-17T08:53:00.000-07:00

hEy...hIhI...tHiS mOrniNg I hAd A bAd fLu...sO I dIdn'T gO fOR thE CADC eVeNt...heEz... fEEl sO bAd...HEeZ...dEn mEt uP wItH dAr...We wAnTed tO gO fOr tHe aRcHeRy dE...HeEz...bUt thEn We eNded up At FoOd cOurT 5 eAtIng KFC...hEEz...dEn AfT that...We weNT to bUy pUZzLe aT CaUseWAy point loH...hEeZ...$50 lEhZ...hEeZ...We bUy le dEn nExT tiME can fIx tOgEthEr...iT's 1000 piEcEs dE...WinniE tHe pooH dE...VerY cUtE loh...Den afT tAT...We wEnT foR sErvIcE togEthER lOh...heE...DeN tOdAy iS mY ShEparD's bDay...EsTheR's bIrtHdAy...sO wE cElEbRatE iT wIth hEr lOh...hEeZ...dEn We juZ gO hoMe liDat...hEeZ...bTw...ThE SRJC coNcErt iS vEry niCe ...hEeZ...dEn Tml wilL bE goIng tO tHe EaSt CoASt pArK loH...wITh TiaN n SAb...tAt Pat gOt sOme dUnnO wAt sIngiNG sEsSioN...So cAn'T join uS...sAd lEhz...HEez... miSs her MucH!heEz...tHinK tAt's All I wIll sAy fOR tOdaY...upDATe tMl lE...bYez...

13tH JulY 2004

2004-07-13T08:21:00.000-07:00

HeY...WaT A TIriNG DaY...HeEZ...acTuAlLy sTaRtS sCh aT 12pM dEn eNd at 5pM...BuT sTIlL vEry tIREd lOh...hEEZ..aFt sCh wEnt To thE cRuSAde thinGy...HAiZ...heEz...tMl wIll bE abLe tO mEeT Z3 le...tAt's aLl...niTeZ...

12tH JuLy 2004

2004-07-12T08:13:00.000-07:00

hEy...2nD dAy oF mY blOg, 1St dAy of mY 2nD weEk oF mY 1sT SeMeStEr aT SP...hAhA...vEry comPlIcAtEd dAy hOr?hAHA... MoNdAY bLueS lEhz...tOdAy iS A suPer lOnG dAy lOh...hEeZ...sTARts sCh at 8am tiLl 5pm iN thE eVeNing loH...onLi goT 1 hr of Lunch brEAk iN beTWeEn lOh...sO tIrEd...hEeZ...toDaY I woRe mY lAb coat...n I fEEl so lIkE a sCiEnTiSt loh...so Pro leHz...oH...tHAnkS tO SAbRiNa oNcE agAin in rEcueiNg mY blOg...HEeZ...ALwAys oSo SAb dO my bLoG dE LEhZ...I oNli tYpE loH...fEEl so bAd...bUt wHo asK hEr tO bE thE cOmpUtER WhiZ lAh...hEeZ...hAiZ...oNcE agAin...I feEl so cOm iDiOt loh...tHiS cOmiNg WeD, Z4 r goIng tO be unItEd AgAin...wE're goiNG tO wAtCh thE conCErT doNe bY SRJC lOh... hEeZ...lOoKiNG fOrWArD tO thiS dAy...hEeZ...kK...thInk tAT's All I wAnnA sAY todAy...oH yA...SAb...sOrRy...I dIDn't cAlL u...cUz I wAS cHattInG wiTh BaO FaNG tIlL quIte lAtE...dEn wAs thINkinG tAT u miTe fAll asLp lE...So I dIdN't cAll u...nOt I fORgEt lEhz...jUz tAt I duN wAnnA dIsTurB uR beAuty SlP...k Lah...sIGhIng oFf leZ...bYe...

1sT tImE wRiTIng mY oWn bLoG...hEeZ...11th JuLy 04

2004-07-11T05:53:00.000-07:00

HeY pPl...ThAnkS SaBrInA tO hElP me cReAtE thIs bLoG fOR mE...hAhA...eVEn tHoUGh I miTe nOT aLwAYs coMe onLINe n adD bLog...bUt thIS iS a pLAcE whErE I Can tEll my thOugHts... hEeZ...tODay IS SunDay...n I'vE beeN slPiNG foR moRe tHEn 10 hrS toDay...rEAllY PigGy lOh...miSs my DAr vEry mUCh...erR...okok... I MiSs DaViN vERy mUCh...hEeZ...mY muM dUn alLow mE tO gO ouT n stUDy wiTh hiM Loh...HaIZ...sAd lEHz...heE...bUt thiS mUZ be A teSt foR boTh of Us loh...wAnNA adD tAT...I miSs my oTheR Z3s vEry mUCh...heeZ...reAlLY loh...Poly sTArTs sCh lE...VEry sTReSs AR...!kk...tat's aLL le...siGnIng ofF...:-)